This Is My Story!

maybe i wasn't asking you to love me back. but i was asking you to understand. Because for so long I've been hurt and for so long you've been ignored it and maybe its bad timing, but maybe i don't care. I've been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. waiting for you to say you've been waiting too, and you haven't and maybe you never will or maybe you afraid to. Actually i always happy when you smile even that smile isn't for me. but it all hurts the same and in the end I'm the one that's left broken and then i lay down to sleep, I'm still the one crying like i probably always will.

Whoever,     Forgive my foolishness, but i think of you as my wonderful heavenly angel, and i want to talk to you as a child would talk to his brother. i can't understand why nature made it so complicated, when it so simple. i don't have courage. still hardly dare to talk to you and I don't even dare to stare at  you when our eyes met. I'm frustrated because i cant tell you what i feels for you. I'm mad because i dont know how you feel but i want to know! of course I'm sad because i thinking of you every day and night. absolutely angry, because you don't understand maybe. aggravated because you dont belong to me. and i wanted you to be mine. totally disappointed because we can't be together.     My lovely friends always telling me to smile to him but i can't. well i've tried that. i've tried to hide my nervous and covering that with innocent face. no matter how many marks i wore. that's all not going better.     should i ask, "ma

" Moving on is easy. but forget it? well that's another story" Since last year , I was never attracted to any boy again . I think , that every guy is same . always sucks . Because of him that give me so much memories in my life and that's hurt me ten times more! that's so unfair. so since that i tried not to interested in any boy. I just focus to every lesson at school. My friends are always bothering me by stupid rumor that i cant moving on -_- . Silly. But... Oneday, someone passed on my class with his basketball clothes. his eyes were deep like the sky at night, so innocent. he was tall and handsome boy. My heartbeat increased. I was too mesmerized by him. i don't know why, that i still stared at him like an idiot until he turned away. this is idiot. it seems I was too frozen to move u ntil someone shouted my name with upset. I decided to went out quickly before anyone notice me. I went to the basketball court w

In love with EnidBlyton. fourth book of Adventure ( Lucy-Ann, Dinah, Philip, Jack and of course Kiki )    After Lucy-Ann, Dinah, Philip and Jack exposed to measles. Their mother Allowed them to go on vocation. Fortunately, uncle Bill had to go to the quiet place to hide from the enemy who wanted to kill him. So uncle Bill invited kids to went to go together to the bird island. They are really happy, they didn't know that they would be involved in the new adventure.    There are many uninhabited islands, only animals. They're choice one of them and found many Puffin.    One day, there were a mysterious plane passing the island . Bill become worried that someone found him there. So he went to check another island around there. apparently there were an enemy who saw bill when he come back to the puffin island.     One night, when Bill sent a message through a radio, someone hit his head and took him to the boat. Bill passed out. In the morni

This morning i started the first breath of awakening with a prayer of praise. then i opened my pc. I'm confused what should i do. there was a screensaver of my memories when my best friend and i spent our time together. suddenly it feels like there was a   punch hit my chest. letting go of someone we love is the hardest part to do. i tried to forget her, but it just make me thought about her more and more.  the worst part today is when i cried so hard. i cant stopped my tears down to my cheek. i'm so fucking embarrassed. oh god give me some strength for through this fucking embarrassing moment! dont let my tears down like a waterfall! she's too important to me and i dont wanna lose her. ahg.. holycrap!

hey dude .. how are you ? do you know how much i miss you ? please darling .. dont make me confused . i thought we're best friend . easy for you to leave me .. you dont know anything about my feeling for you ! i dont understand why you changes a lot .. am i wrong ? just tell me ! DONT BE STUPID ! no wind or rain but storm ! when your eyes met my gaze , you just walked away . when i said hi , you just stared at me just like an idiot ! what happened with your brain ? ERROR huh ? give me just one good reason ! please tell me that you're not an idiot who lost her mind ! if i made you upset .. I'm sorry i didnt mean for that ! lets spend our time together again . remember when we laughed at every moment together . i love you . - Ve ra