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Dear god,

This morning i started the first breath of awakening with a prayer of praise. then i opened my pc. I'm confused what should i do. there was a screensaver of my memories when my best friend and i spent our time together. suddenly it feels like there was a  punch hit my chest. letting go of someone we love is the hardest part to do. i tried to forget her, but it just make me thought about her more and more. 
the worst part today is when i cried so hard. i cant stopped my tears down to my cheek. i'm so fucking embarrassed. oh god give me some strength for through this fucking embarrassing moment! dont let my tears down like a waterfall! she's too important to me and i dont wanna lose her. ahg.. holycrap!

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