This Is My Story!

sometimes life doesn't fair right? and something you just wanna hide from nothing. alright, it was the first december and its still feel the same. i don't want to continue this painful life. i have no parent anymore. my mom already died years ago and not long after that my father leave me with my little sister, i dont know why. Since that i have to work hard to survive. Actually i don't want to continue this life, but i have to find the money to pay the hospital. my little sister is very pity. she has a cancer. she cant move from her bed, she only can move her arms. I dont know why she has a spirit for life and i don't. i feel very useless because i think i cant make my little sister happy. everyday after working, i just can bring her some comics. Just comics but she always said " thank you so much! i love you !" Christmas came closer, i have to save my money right now. and i make promised to my little sister to bring her out to the center of the town. i wa

maybe i wasn't asking you to love me back. but i was asking you to understand. Because for so long I've been hurt and for so long you've been ignored it and maybe its bad timing, but maybe i don't care. I've been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. waiting for you to say you've been waiting too, and you haven't and maybe you never will or maybe you afraid to. Actually i always happy when you smile even that smile isn't for me. but it all hurts the same and in the end I'm the one that's left broken and then i lay down to sleep, I'm still the one crying like i probably always will.

Whoever,     Forgive my foolishness, but i think of you as my wonderful heavenly angel, and i want to talk to you as a child would talk to his brother. i can't understand why nature made it so complicated, when it so simple. i don't have courage. still hardly dare to talk to you and I don't even dare to stare at  you when our eyes met. I'm frustrated because i cant tell you what i feels for you. I'm mad because i dont know how you feel but i want to know! of course I'm sad because i thinking of you every day and night. absolutely angry, because you don't understand maybe. aggravated because you dont belong to me. and i wanted you to be mine. totally disappointed because we can't be together.     My lovely friends always telling me to smile to him but i can't. well i've tried that. i've tried to hide my nervous and covering that with innocent face. no matter how many marks i wore. that's all not going better.     should i ask, "ma