This Is My Story!

maybe i wasn't asking you to love me back. but i was asking you to understand. Because for so long I've been hurt and for so long you've been ignored it and maybe its bad timing, but maybe i don't care. I've been here all along just waiting, waiting for you to notice, waiting for you to care. waiting for you to say you've been waiting too, and you haven't and maybe you never will or maybe you afraid to. Actually i always happy when you smile even that smile isn't for me. but it all hurts the same and in the end I'm the one that's left broken and then i lay down to sleep, I'm still the one crying like i probably always will.

Whoever,     Forgive my foolishness, but i think of you as my wonderful heavenly angel, and i want to talk to you as a child would talk to his brother. i can't understand why nature made it so complicated, when it so simple. i don't have courage. still hardly dare to talk to you and I don't even dare to stare at  you when our eyes met. I'm frustrated because i cant tell you what i feels for you. I'm mad because i dont know how you feel but i want to know! of course I'm sad because i thinking of you every day and night. absolutely angry, because you don't understand maybe. aggravated because you dont belong to me. and i wanted you to be mine. totally disappointed because we can't be together.     My lovely friends always telling me to smile to him but i can't. well i've tried that. i've tried to hide my nervous and covering that with innocent face. no matter how many marks i wore. that's all not going better.     should i ask, "ma